{"id":10599,"date":"2013-10-19T11:51:34","date_gmt":"2013-10-19T10:51:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=10599"},"modified":"2013-10-19T12:05:04","modified_gmt":"2013-10-19T11:05:04","slug":"10599","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=10599","title":{"rendered":"M\u00e5ngalen?"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Fullm\u00e5ne i natt. Visst, man skall bo p\u00e5 landet f\u00f6r att till fullo uppskatta den. H\u00e4r har den inga andra ljus att konkurrera med och blir till nattens otvivelaktiga h\u00e4rskare. Men det \u00e4r klart, jag har tillbett Luna ocks\u00e5 augustin\u00e4tter vid V\u00e4rtans strand. Med stadens puls och ljus n\u00e4ra och i ryggen. Det \u00e4r ingen skillnad s\u00e5klart. Det handlar mest om en vilja att se och k\u00e4nna. Inte var man befinner sig. Det erk\u00e4nner jag. Om bara n\u00e5gra dagar kan jag se den \u00f6ver Atlanten. Samma m\u00e5ne. Inget m\u00e4rkv\u00e4rdigt men trotts det m\u00e4rkv\u00e4rdigast av allt om man v\u00e5gar erk\u00e4nna det f\u00f6r sitt innersta jag.<\/p>\n

Jag delar l\u00e4ngtan efter den med vattnet, hundarna och vargarna. Vi som \u00e4r av den sort som dras mot den med krafter vi k\u00e4nner i hela v\u00e5rt v\u00e4sen. Blir galna av dess \u00e5terspeglade \u00e5ttaminutersljus och m\u00e5ste yla ut v\u00e5r l\u00e4ngtan och vilja att komma n\u00e4rmare det som vi k\u00e4nner \u00e4r en fr\u00e4nde men en som vi aldrig n\u00e5gonsin kommer att n\u00e5. Det \u00e4r i det vi finner och ger utlopp f\u00f6r det m\u00e5ngalna inom oss som nu n\u00e5tt sinnenas yta och knackar p\u00e5 med en \u00f6nskan att sl\u00e4ppas ut med h\u00e5rda knackningar. Att l\u00e4ngta men aldrig n\u00e5. Frustrationens bistra sanning som bara kan f\u00f6rl\u00f6sas genom att v\u00e5ra fysiska kroppar f\u00e5r str\u00e4cka sig upp mot himlakroppen d\u00e4r uppe och yla med full kraft. Tills vi inte orkar mer. Tills natten \u00e4r \u00f6ver och vi finner oss i v\u00e5ra \u00f6den. Alltid l\u00e4ngtandes, dragen till m\u00e5nen som till en f\u00f6runderligt \u00e4lskad. Den f\u00f6rsta, st\u00f6rsta, k\u00e4rleken som aldrig kom oss helt till m\u00f6tes.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Fullm\u00e5ne i natt. Visst, man skall bo p\u00e5 landet f\u00f6r att till fullo uppskatta den. H\u00e4r har den inga andra ljus att konkurrera med och blir till nattens otvivelaktiga h\u00e4rskare. Men det \u00e4r klart, jag har tillbett Luna ocks\u00e5 augustin\u00e4tter vid V\u00e4rtans strand. Med stadens puls och ljus n\u00e4ra och i ryggen. 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